Monday, August 15, 2011

Phoning home.


So...I've practiced.  This is what I'm going to say.  I'm finally calling Me back.  Goes something like this:

Hey, I'm sorry it's been so long Me.  You know gets ahead of you and I've just been really busy.  Been trying really hard to figure out all these amazing things that have been happening to me and make sense of what to do with them.  None of that means I haven't thought of you often and wondered how you've been doing.  I've wanted to talk with you about everything, because I know you'd understand and be able to put things into perspective for me.  But then something else would happen in my life and I'd get swept up again, and before I knew it more time had passed.  I know you tried calling a bunch of times, but my voicemail has been acting up and for some reason I wasn't getting my messages and...  I'm sorry if I made you feel unimportant.  It's been such a crazy year full of unexpected changes and feelings, and I really got caught up in the moment of all of it and I didn't mean to be unavailable to you.  How have you been?

Please pick up.

[ "Hello."  *silence*]

Uhhhh.  Hi, Me.  So glad I caught you!  (Well-rehearsed speech goes out the window and I panic.  The following can be read at the speed of sound.)  I know what you're thinking.  I know.  I know I promised to spend more time with you this year.  I'm sorry.  I'm sorry I haven't been in contact.  I suck at life.  I wanted to see you, I promise.  I just...there's still 4 months left in the year you know!  *crazy chuckle*

*blank space*

When do you have free time??  I'd love to see you.  There's so much I want to explain to you and I really could use you around again.  I've missed you.  Please don't be mad at me, I was really busy and I need you to understand that and...

[ "Sorry I missed your call.  It is important to me.  Please leave a brief message and I will get back to you when I have time."    <BeeP> ]

   ...  Oh.  Hi Me, it's  Call me back!  I thought your voicemail was really you. *crazy chuckle* <click>

That went well I think.